1st of October, Breast Cancer awareness month. Do your part to support the cause. I'm getting a late start tonight. My day started off as usual, however, once I got to work I dealt with stupid people most of the day. From clients, to people on the road, and just those that don't have a clue. How can so many people not have any common sense. I feel good and I'm glad tomorrow is Friday. I have finished 12 out of 34 radiation treatments. Just 5 more and I am 1/2 way done. Ok, so we tried Verizon again tonight. I was the 10th person tonight and only had to wait about 30 minutes. Much better than last night. Although we really didn't get anything resolved. We have to wait until the end of Dec to get new phones, so my son is upset that he has to deal with a messed up phone for the next 3 months. Went to my brother's this evening to show him some stuff on my facebook. He does not have a facebook at this point. You know, new stuff is hard for older folks. (just kidding bro). There were pictures I wanted him to see, so we spent some time looking around and he got a mini training session on what FB is all about. Next thing you know - it's after 10:00. Anyway - last day I have to get up early and I'll be looking forward to sleeping in on Sat.

Today was a typical day. Work, treatment, home. Feeling ok today, although my skin is getting a bit more red. More like a light sun burn. Doesn't hurt yet. Putting cream on it daily. I'll be glad when the next 2 days are over. About 3:30 I am ready for the day to end. It gets to be nap time and the last hour and a half drags on. Some how when I get home, I don't get the chance to lay down and relax. It seems there is usually something we have to do. I guess I could just go in my room and shut the door and insist I not be disturbed for 30 minutes. Yeah, right. My son's phone is not working and so we tried to go to Verizon tonight and waited for over an hour and decided to leave. Alltel certainly had better service. Anyway - it's now time for bed and do it all over again tomorrow. Stay positive and keep reaching for the stars.

It was a pretty good day today. Went to work early. Had a 9:00 appt for chemo and with the doctor. Did not have to wait long at all. Doctor came into room before the nurse was done with my blood pressure. Saw her all of 5 minutes and off to treatment. My face had started to break out so I had asked her about out. She said it was due to the steroid and she would back off on the amount. She also said that things looked great and I was doing very well. Treatment worked like a charm. Port worked immediately and I was out of there quickly. Went back to work until time for radiation. That went quickly as well and I met with the doctor. He said things look as he expected them to look at at this point. The skin under the arm is a litter pinker and he said it was normal. The under arm also usually rubs a little more so it would get a bit irritated. He said it will be more like the 5th or 6th week that I will start feeling and see the effects. Great. I have this week and next to enjoy what I can. My ribs on the right side are a little sore, almost burised. He said that is normal and it is a possibility that it could stay that way. You never know. He likes to cover everything just in case so I don't come back next year and say they are still sore. He doesn't want to say he never told me.
I talked to a lady while I was waiting for radiation, I had seen her the last couple weeks and this is her last week. We recently started chatting. She is retired and has grandkids. Doesn't look too much older than mid 50s. She drives from Wakulla every day. Talk about a hassle. Anyway, she could not believe I had been working this whole time going thru all this. One of the attorney's wife came in today (her mom also had breast cancer 15 years ago) Anyway, she said I was her hero to have done and handled things the way I have. She said it was remarkable the way I have continued to work and still look great. A few days ago another friend had mention how incredible I have been doing and also being mom to my son. I guess I really have to pat myself on the back and take the compliments as they come and feel very blessed and humble to know that I have people that care, people that can see the things I don't and to and realize that I am not letting this disease get the best of me. I have a job as a mom that I can't and won't quit, I have a job as a paralegal that I can't and won't quit, and I have a job to be the best I can be and live my life to the fullest. Life goes on and you can't just sit around and feel sorry for yourself or moan and groan. You have to get up each day, face the sunshine and do the best you can. And when you feel tired, you rest. When you feel overwhelmed, you stop and take a break. When you feel like crying, you cry. Thanks to all those special people for being a part of my life. I love you and apreciate you.

Happy Monday. #9 radiation out of 34, 1/4 way done. Not too bad of a day for the beginning of the week. I was a little tired this morning but other than that ok. It was definately a long day. It felt like Grounhogs Day over and over and over. I didn't think it would ever end. I've just been hanging out watching shows and now ready to go to bed. I will have a very busy day tomorrow - going to work early, chemo at 9, back to work, radiation, back to work, son to a meeting at 6, then I think I will go to bed. It's nice to know though, that after this week, I only have 6 weeks left. I can see the glow of the light. Until tomorrow.

Relaxing Sunday so to speak. Slept in. Had our usual bagel breakfast and went to work. Nick helped by emptying all the recycle boxes of paper into the Shred-it boxes. Then went to the mall to see if we could find anything else for me. Went to Bealls and got 2 suitcases then to lunch. Came home and watched some football. Nick took a nap and I seemed to be able to stay up for the day. Nothing seems to be bothering me today. Arm feels good, I feel good. Ready for the week - hoping it goes by fast. I'll be glad when Friday gets here. Hoping things go well this week.

It was a bad day for Seminole fans. And the poor Gators - their man Tebow got hurt. However Miami lost to VTech so I guess it wasn't such a bad day after all. I had to get up early to drop Nick off a school. He was doing consessions at the game. I was going to go into work but I was really tired so I went back home and basically laid on the couch and slept most of the day. I even slept thru most of the FSU game. Shows how non-exciting it was. I probably would have slept most of the night if Nick hadn't called for me to come get him. I guess the week wears me out and I make up for it on the weekend. Kind of wastes my day but I need the sleep. I do have to make a point to go into work tomorrow to make up a couple of hours. I went clothes shopping tonight to find something nice to wear to an event I have been invited to next weekend. It is dressy and I had to find something. Nick went with me and shared his opinion. I tried on a few things and ended up with some nice black pants and a really cool animal print shirt. I guess you could say it is tiger - brown and black stipes. Then I found a cute pair of black shoes that had prints on it too. To top off my evening, I booked our flight to Utah for Christmas. How cool will that be, spending some much needed vacation time in the snow. Till tomorrow.

It was a great Friday. I finished my 2nd week of radiation. I wish it was the 5th week but I'll take what I can get. I was able to move my band. I'm about 1/4 way done with radiation and almost 1/2 way done with chemo. Things are looking up. I am glad for the break this weekend, although I do need to go into work tomorrow for a couple of hours. Hope I can finish in time to watch the FSU game. I have been needing to take a short nap when I get home from work. I need a few minutes rest to catch my second wind and stay up a little at night. Hope everyone enjoys their weekend.